I suppose I should begin this with a bit of history. I grew up Southern Baptist. I went to church every Sunday and usually Wednesday up until the time I was 17. From age 5, I knew it wasn't anything I wanted to be a part of. I suppose a mix of Stockholm Syndrome and a love for not wanting to anger my mother kept me from asking too many questions, out loud anyway. I did a lot of churchy things. Went to summer camp, World Changers, choir mission trips, and I saw a lot of cool things, met a lot of interesting people. I never felt right doing it in the name of Goooood though. I never felt that a religion in which one has to convert others to feel right or do things in the name of some omnipotent being to earn some reward was the correct reason to do it. (Excuse the run on sentences and getting ahead of myself, I tend to write blogs the way they come into my head, without feeling any real need to edit them.)
So after all of that peppering most of my childhood, I finally stood up to my mother and told her that I couldn't do it anymore. She threatened fire and brimstone, regretted ever having me and the like. She even chased me out of the house, but once again, getting ahead of myself. So eventually I began to take hold of the reigns of my spiritual journey. I looked into many other avenues of religion and up until now have setled on agnosticism. Maybe it is because I have simply felt drained and found spirituality to not really be a necessity. But, I feel as though I have betrayed myself. I am a highly spiritual person, and I need an outlet.
Here I am again, considering my options. Here I am, considering Druidry. I have always felt a strong tie to nature, and I always feel more myself when I'm out in the wilderness, not to mention more inspired. This is my first step onto this path. I have researched many of the different ideals of Druidry, even ordered an introductory course from OBOD, though after doing more research, I'm not sure they'll be the best fit. I'm interested in where this will take me, and if I seem scatterbrained at his point, it's because I am. I am starting this blog to create a springboard for myself, as a reflection, to see how I learn and grow through this journey. So that's all I've got so far. Not sure who I'm justifying this to.
